I don’t like to post when I’m feeling down, just don’t want to bring others down with me I guess, but I think in a way that’s why I started this blog two years ago so that I could or my kids could go back and see what I had to say…you see back in February friends of ours daughter died at the age of 28, I won’t go into how or why she passed away it doesn’t matter now , a beautiful girl. Her parents were devastated and it took me a while to get over it. Well, last week another friend of ours son drowned in the Alleghenney River while fishing with a friend and the friends dad, they got to close to the dam and the water took both Brian 28 and the friend’s dad, the friend managed to swim, we think he was somehow thrown clear of the turbulent water. Brian was married and they would have celebrated their 2nd anniversary next month, so young and so sad!!! You see my mom buried my brother and my sister buried her daughter and I’m scared…am I next? Am I crazy? Stush has even asked me what’s wrong!
Well, that’s what has me down ladies and gents and I’m trying to get over the sadness of it all so bear with me, posting today is a step forward, I just haven’t wanted too. I also think my birthday got me down too although I try really, really hard not to let it do that to me:)
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As you know I always go to a consignment shop once a month, it’s located across the street where I get my hair done and I always manage to find something to come home with me, I found this large sampler for $14.00, it’s not an old one but while looking at it I thought it would look better if I painted the frame black (of course) and maybe apply some coffee stain to the sampler part. The back of the sampler is cardboard and I hate to take it off because it is framed so nicely but I’d like to darken it up if I can.
I found this 5x7 picture at GW for $1.99, sorry it’s not a good photo of it, it’s really neat and I already have the frame painted black and distressed.
Also at GW Wednesday, I found this pewter porringer for $5.99…I think GW is getting smart:)
and here is the bottom of it, a neat find at GW I think":)
I always look in the glass case for the designer purses and I hit the jackpot while there, I found a new Vera Bradley purse for $9.99, made me feel good because I was wanting a new purse for summer and finding a designer one for such a good price was even better:)
That’s about it blog friends, sorry it’s a not so great post but I do hate to be away to long. Thank you to my newest followers and also to my older friends I so appreciate you stopping by for a visit. Have a wonderful evening wherever you are♥
Rondell
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Rondell...like you said..it is your blog, and you can feel free to brag, question, be happy or sad! That is a lot of sadness all in one fell swoop, but sometimes that is the way things happen. I have often wondered sometimes if I am 'too blessed' as well, but I don't think God feels that way about us. No one here can tell you why the bad happens...it just does.
ReplyDeleteYour post was exactly what a post should be about- the stuff in your life, and may I just say this? I wish I lived near that Thrift store of yours. The sampler is wonderful. Please show it after you redo it. And, who doesn't love a Vera..great deals!
Please take the time to feel better, and just blog when you want to....Take care of you...
Lynne
dlynne172@yahoo.com
Chin up, my friend! I know things will get you down...especially death of loved ones or those taken to young...but, keep that chin up...you will get thru this!
ReplyDeleteIf it makes you feel better...we can go to the Goodwill together and fight over the goodies there?!...Cuz that pewter, might of had me swinging, if anyone came near!....hehehehehehehe
I am a newer follower of your blog but my heart is aching for you. I know the world seems so dark right now but I hope the sunlight starts shining on you soon. You should never feel bad for writing a post that isn't totally "upbeat" if it helps you to heal. My prayers are with you and your poor friends who have lost their children.
ReplyDeleteI understand what you are feeling. I too felt the same way when my brother died. It started off that my great-grandmother lost a son. My Grandmother lost a son and my Mom lost a son my brother. I just knew something was going to happend to my Son. I then had to talk to myself and say what will happens happens. Not that I want anything to happen to Our son..but I also can not change the past or worry about the future because if I do then I am not focusing on the present, and the reason it's called the present is because it is a gift from the big man above. So your thoughts are just that thoughts. I don't know you and you don't know me but here is a huge hug...xoxo MJ
ReplyDeleteRondell my dear, I am sooo sorry for all your loses. I'm sending you hugs and prayers to get better. I know how you feel. I remember when my daughter was in grade school and she had a boy that was in her class that battled cancer for a couple of years. I used to help out once a week for my daughters class and I was a room mother too. I got pretty close with the kids in her class. Well when he did pass, I was devastated. I cried for days. It was just so sad. I think in time things will get better. They just have too.
ReplyDeleteTammy <3
Nothing I could think of would hurt worse than to bury a child. I can understand your sadness and concern. I think that we just have to work through those sad times in our lives and come out of them stronger. Take your time and count your blessings!
ReplyDeleteCathy
Hi Rondell! Sorry you are feeling down, but I'm sure things will be better soon. Don't think about the what-ifs! It will drive you nuts. I think we all do that sometimes. I love your new finds. The sampler is great! I have stained samplers on cardboard. I just took a sponge brush and dabbed the coffee stain on and let it air dry. It did fine. You can also put the coffee stain in a spray bottle and spray it on. Be sure and show us the finished product. Cheer up and enjoy one day at a time. Life is good!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear of the tragedies and I understand your anxiety. I worry the same way for other reasons, but same worries. I think we all have to just believe that everything will be okay and that sometimes God has a bigger plan for us. Take a deep breath, hon, and keep busy. Helps me a lot. Nice finds, by the way :) Have a wonderful weekend.
ReplyDeleteHi Rondell!....first of all, no you are not next!....I know it may seem as though fate would have it that way because I think the same way so I know what you mean. Each March I think is this the month I'm gonna die because both my parents died in the month of March and I am an only child so I figure that March will be the month I go and last month I was feeling things like chest pains and sometimes I think that it's our brain that causes half the stuff that happens to us!....and the sadness over the death of someone you know sure will make your mind play awful tricks on you because it's so hard to be reminded of how fragile life is and personally I sometimes find that very difficult to accept....so you go right ahead and feel sad, that is completely normal and so is the funk you are feeling as well....this too shall pass! {{{{hugz}}}}
ReplyDeleteJanet
So sorry for such sad things. Life surely is not fair and can be so sad. I hope you feel better soon. Let the "SON" shine in your heart today. Julie
ReplyDeleteRondell~
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you are feeling down. I think it is natural when we see young people die to get down. It is so hard to understand why some people's lives are cut short. I think it is best not to ask why, but it is human to want to know the answers. Unfortunately, we will never know the answer to these questions. At least not while we are here on this Earth.
A girl that works in my school district lost her four year old son today. He was ran over by a tractor that his dad was driving. It is hard to understand why God lets things like this happen. All we can do for the people we know who experience great loss is to be there for them and pray for them.
Life is short and precious and we have to live each day to its fullest. We need to work hard to embrace the good and forget the bad. I know that it easier said than done.
You are not crazy, you are human. Never beat yourself up for feeling the way you do. God gives us valleys so that we can appreciate the warmth of the sun on the mountaintop.
You have a lot of people in your life who love you and who will be there for you. Relax in that assurance and keep going.
I love all of the items you found at the GW. I can't wait to see the sampler with the black frame. It will make a huge difference.
I am thinking of you and praying that God will give you peace.
~Dan~
Rondell, first I want to say how very sorry I am I know things like this can be very difficult...and in times like this it's really hard to see God's big picture. I truely believe God was there that day on that river with those three men and He had His arms wrapped around all them. Sometimes in this life things happen that we just don't full understand, but we just have to remind ourselves that our God is a BIG God! He his all knowing. Someone once told me and I hope this bring you and you family a little comfort, "There is no panic in Heaven, just plans!" I truely believe this...I will be praying for you, that God will bring you peace.
ReplyDeleteRondell~I am so sorry that you are feeling down. I can understand you feeling the way that you do with all of this tragedy around you. Just know that we are all here for you...so whenever you are feeling down lean on us to hoist you back up :)
ReplyDeleteAs for your finds....Way To Go!
That pewter piece is so awesome.
It seems that you have had much more luck than I have.
Have a good weekend...and I hope you get to feeling like your old perky self soon!
Remember your age is just a number to mark how many great years you have been around to make others happy!
Sure hope you're feeling better soon, my friend. Try to enjoy the weekend, Dawn
ReplyDeleteRondell, I am so sorry about the tragedies you have faced lately. Please don't let it worry you. I hope you always know you are welcome to post whatever is on your heart and mind, we still like hearing from you, and if we can help encourage you, I know I speak for all of us we are glad to. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDelete((Hugs))
Andy
Oh Rondell, you are so me! Fear and anxiety make me crazy with worry!
ReplyDeleteRemember one thing though, Fear is not the Lords tool. He doesn't work that way.
Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.
Also, there is a poem I love, and it talks about a beautiful ship sailing on the ocean, and on the shore peoplpe are standing watching, and at the last, when the ship is melting into the very distant horizion, they say with much sadness, "there she goes". But on the opp. shore, people are also standing watching and as the ship comes into their view they are very excitied and cry out, "there she comes"!
It's so hard sometimes, to rely on our faith to get us through. I know I always want ALL the answers NOW and I want them to match what I think I need. But we don't know the Lords will nor the entire plan.
Know your in my prayers.
Hugs.
I do love your treasures.
Take care
Mercy
Hi Rondell,
ReplyDeleteI think it is nornal for deaths to temporarily get us down. We grieve and our hearts hurt.I am just sorry there have been so many so close together - it must feel overwhelmig at times. I hope talking about it helped a little.
Great finds this week!! Back when I first started cross stitching - I used to use this cardboard that had sticky on it to mat the samplers. Perhaps yours is on something like that. Since you can't be sure if the floss is water proof and won't run, one idea is that you can try taking some coffee granules (instant) and dipping a wet rag into them, and then using the rag to rub here and there. That way you won't wet the thread too much.
And just remember, you are not getting older, you are getting better!!
Aww girl.. wish we could all get together to give ya a hug. We are here for you. Awesome finds btw.. hang in there!
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs,
Stella
My thoughts and prayers are with you as you struggle through this tough time. I think the deaths of people so young really hit us all hard and with your history it makes it worse. I hope these feelings will pass soon. Take care of yourself. Love your finds....especially the pewter.
ReplyDelete~Melissa~
Rondell,
ReplyDeleteAt my local quilt shop they have a spray that antiques your stitchery. It comes out as a fine mist and is made of walnut shells. I bought it and was pleased it didn't saturate my project. Because I was making dolls I didn't care for the uneven look but feel it would be a good look for a "old" stitchery. It is online and cost about 8.00 if I remember corectly...http://www.thequiltedcrow.com/
We are your friends and care deeply for you. Please share all your news not just happy news. We want to pray for your comfort. I am so sorry for the saddness and fear you are going through.
Behold, God is my salvation,I will trust and not be afraid;for Yah, the Lord is my strength and song; He also has become my salvation.
Isaiiah 12:2
God Bless,
Audrey
Hi Rondell...You know sometimes just having said that we feel upset or down or writing it down as you did seems to help us get through it.
ReplyDeleteThe range of emotions that we go through is amazing. You are such a strong, positive giving person I know that you will pull yourself through these feelings. Just know that you have so many people who care about you that you haven't even met yet!
Linda/simplycountryseasons
Rondell, that is a lot of tragedy in such a short time, any one of us would be down, too. Just remember, "this too shall pass".
ReplyDeleteI need to go to the GW with you! Great score!
Hugs,
Tracey
It is amazing how our fears can take over, I certainly know how you feel, we just have to keep trusting God that He is with us always no matter what we go through.
ReplyDeleteI wish we had a great thrift store around here, I can't wait for the garage sales to start!!LOL Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!:0)
You know what Rondell Yay for you for posting how you feel. I can understand why you feel the way you do. I'm not going to tell you not to worry because I think all of us in some way worry about things like this subconsciously. Right now however you are in the stages of grief and it's OK. Besides we are all here for ya to lean on.
ReplyDeleteAs for your goodies I would only start with painting the frame then go from there. Awesome piece of pewter you got. I saw a pewter piece today but didn't pick it up imagine that. LOL.
Chin up my friend!
Mary
As women, we feel we can fix everything and make it good. If it doesn't happen as we plan we often feel guilty. I am glad you are brave enough to share your feelings. We all have them, and even wonder why we deserve happiness while others suffer. It doesn't mean you need to anticipate unhappiness. I think it just means some people need to learn something about life with a sad experience. You are learning, too, because you are so sensitive to the feelings of others. One of the reasons we love you so!
ReplyDeleteAwww Rondell, my prayers are with you. Scott and I have had a rough few months as well, 5 funerals in about 4 months time. It certainly does take a toll on you. I am with everyone else too... good for you for posting and keep your chin up and your eyes on Jesus. :) We are all here for you.
ReplyDeleteWhat great finds you brought home to redo. I will look forward to seeing pictures of the transformations, which I am sure will be primfect!
Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers this day and always...
Blessings and hugs,
Stacey
Well it looks like you have some wonderful friends here posting wonderful comments.
ReplyDeleteI can understand where you are at....when so many sad things happen around us to htose we love it's kind of a natural thing to start feeling this way. I think I'd be kind of in the same situation.
Loving your goodwill finds - especially the Pewter....great find on the VB purse.
Karen
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. Prayers are sent your way. Keep the faith.
ReplyDeleteawh (((Hugs)))) Rondell, I hope you're feeling better today, friend. I think ya did the right thing...writing things down, sometimes it's a good kinda therapy! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're not crazy at all...death=sadness, it can take a toll on us, you are not alone...it just takes time for a sad heart to come back around is all...TGC.
Dear Rondell...My heart goes out to you as does all your friends..sometimes during times like these we realize all the blessings we truly do have. When we lose someone dear to us it takes time and God to put our hearts right again.. But as it says in Psalms -- joy cometh in the morning... look forward to the morning, dear..
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your friends...
So sorry to hear of the tragics Rondell. We never fully grasp why God takes people from our lives but we are supposed to do our best to understand it to be in God's plan. That is so hard to do, especially when young people are taken. All we can really do is love those around us, really love them with everything within us.
ReplyDeleteI understand your feelings. I had these same feelings a few years back when I lost a loved one, for some reason I was terrified for my husband to leave my side. If I couldn't see him in the same room as me, I would start having anxiety attacks. It was crazy, a very hard time for me. I finally went to the dr and was put on anti-depressants. It helped me for a few months to get over all the emotional strain I was putting on my body. After about 6 months of it, I weened myself off. It took a couple of years, but I am finally normal again. Ha! I know God is in control of our lives and He knows what He is doing even though we don't have a clue and don't understand. I will be praying for you to have a peace that covers all worries.
Oh, love your goodwill finds. Yes, I believe GW is getting smarter. I can never find good deals there anymore. It's almost depressing to go there. You found some neat things girl! Have a wonderful week~
Rondell, that is a lot to deal with so don't ever apologize for your feelings. I know I've been lifted many times simply by reading all the comments left by such caring, blogging friends. That's what blogging is about, being real and sharing real life with each other. I think it's great that we know we have friends out there who understand both our ups and downs. Goodness knows, you've been one to encourage me a time or two! We're all here to listen whenever you need an ear to bend or a shoulder to cry on.
ReplyDeleteYour thrift store finds are great! I have to agree with you, I think they're getting smarter too.
Hugs & blessings to you~ Birgit
Hugs to you- sorry about the personal losses in your life - it is so hard but everything is for a reason - sometimes we do not understand what that is.
ReplyDeleteYou certainly find the great treasures when you are out thrift shopping! Love that you get right to it and do something to improve it!
You listen to me Miss Rondell! Every day I pray over our kids Psalm 91...how God will protect us with His angels...that NO EVIL will befall our family and kids....I pray every day for safety and that harm will NOT come to our famiy...and that if it should somehow come that God would give us the ability to find a way out. Also I Pray this scripture "I shall not die but live to proclaim the goodness of God"...I believe there is power in prayer that we don't have to sit back and be fearful of things that could happen. It is terrible what has happened and we all have stories of young people being taken too soon...but I'm praying that it won't happen to you, and I believe God answers prayer. If I was there I would put my arms around you and give you a big hug and a kiss! Yes a kiss! We all understand your heartache and I wish I could make it better....so just know I'm praying for you!!!!
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Debbie
Rondell, I hope you're feeling better now! My dad died when he was 31 and when I was that age and had a child the same age as myself when he died, that's all I could think about for awhile. I think it's pretty normal. You're a wonderful mom, grandmother, blogger, etc, etc,. Great Goodwill finds!
ReplyDeleteoh rondell... I feel for you and your sadness... time heals and we get over those sadnesses, but we never forget. I hope that over time your heart will feel less heavy and just remember those that have gone. I'll be sending you positive thoughts. We are all here for you. Glad you said those things on your blog , as f rom time to time we all think them,but not eveyone is brave enough to say them like you did. I know I do...(((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteRondell,
ReplyDeleteThis is my first visit---I followed over from Molly's place---but you just touched my heart. Your grief for family and friends is a sign of your loving heart and your kind nature, and they are all the richer for having you in their lives.
Sending thoughts and prayers from the Heartland,
rachel